I'm really sorry that I've neglected you for so long. Not only did I leave without a word, I'll come clean and tell you that I've gone back to my old habit of lurking on other blogs as well.
I realise that we should never have been unrealistic in our relationship. I should've made it clear upfront that I'm a somewhat random character that doesn't like being tied down. I'd like to start over with you again, though I think we'll have to face it that I need some space from time to time. I really hope you understand.
My sincere apologies for the incredibly long absence. I honestly thought that I probably wouldn't write another word on my blog. It's been ages since i've been here. Was terribly busy as soon as I got back for the summer holidays (in december, I knowww ><) as i did an internship in a Kuala Lumpur accounting firm. I couldn't find the time to do anything then really!! waking up early, going to work and coming home feeling all drained was my daily grind. I put it down to the fact that I wasn't used to all that gruelling hours. Certainly made me treasure my student life much more! Been back in Melbourne for a couple of months now and autumn weather has reared its muggy, chilly head. Well, let's see what my blog has missed during my absence. 1. Brokeback Mountain hit the silver screens with much expected controversy 2. My friend CF found love
3. Wingedman Will found his other half as well
4. Jay and NM still hold the award for the sweetest couple
5. All the things i went through at work, though it wasn't all that exciting
6. How I have been so confused about so many things, from my career, to what I want in life
Of course there are soooo many other things but I can't really recall at this point.
Work was good thanks to fun colleagues. Had to go out to the client's in Cyberjaya for about two months though. Can you imagine the daily commute!!
I have done an internship before this at my dad's friend firm which wasn't nearly as big as the one I was recently with. I therefore expected the recent one to be terribly glamourous and all..
but it turned out to be plain old work. And that certainly taught me not to expect too much. I used to imagine beautiful people in beatiful suits, all looking like New York Investment bankers ala 'the apprentice' but that went out the window. Everything was just.. so.. normal... I guess the grass is always greener on the other side. The line of service I was in had rhodes scholars and all them other brainiacs but they still worked like normal people. Nothing fantabulous.
All this led me to wonder whether I was prepared to do this for the rest of my life. Seeing that I'm one of them instant gratification type people (I blame it on society and its drive for instant everything :D) imagine the years of slogging I'd have to endure before I actually get anywhere. This is the point of realization that nothing comes easy.
The thinking and contemplation on various things in my life have recently put me in a state of confusion! I really have to try and live in the moment rather than be the worry wort that I usually am ><>